I remember a Sunday School program that my friends from Wallace Presbyterian and I did about the fruits of the spirit. We made our own puppets and performed a puppet show to teach other Sunday School classes about the fruits that the Holy Spirit produces in our lives and what happens when we live in God’s way.
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Galations 5:22-23
Now, twelve years later I am still daily practicing these fruits in my walk of faith. Most recently I am really having to practice patience. When we began our NICU journey, Andrew and I told one another that we would be strong for one another, our girls, and rely on God’s strength to overcome this test that would add to our testimony. As you all know on my Bon Jovi Kind of Day, the girls were rocking it out in Pod D! This past week has also been an awesome and encouraging week for the White family. Andrew and I have been encouraged this week by our nurses and doctors that because of the girls progress in the past week, we could anticipate the week between Christmas and New Year’s for their homecoming! The girls have been getting “fat and sassy” this past week as they are weighing in at a whooping 4 pounds and 4 ounces each!
As we headed into the weekend, we were so excited for our girls progress and to be together for an entire day. We had many things to celebrate from this past week! So, Andrew planned a special day for us to celebrate December 11th! This past Wednesday, we celebrated the girls one month and our “2 year anniversary” of our very first date. Well, as we have learned throughout the past few months: nothing ever goes according to plan. This morning, our sweet Leah alarmed the nurses and doctors with a decline in her heart rate. She was showing the doctors that she was working harder to try and breathe on her own. They assisted her by giving her oxygen, and they began rounds of testing to determine a solution to her odd behavior. When Andrew and I arrived at UNC to see the girls, we had not been made aware of the change in Leah. So, as you can imagine we were surprised to see our baby girl in a different condition. The doctors believe that Leah is fighting an infection, but they have been extremely proactive in doing everything they can to make our baby girl feel better! One test they performed on Leah this afternoon, was a test that would detect any infection in the brain or spine. The preliminary result of this test showed that Leah’s white blood cell count looked completely normal. Along with various tests, Leah had a blood transfusion this afternoon to give her a little “boost” that would allow her to feel better. So, as of now we are still waiting. We are praying for negative test results for any signs of infection, and this is just a “hiccup” our sweet girl is having! Right now, Leah is stable and resting well. The next 48 hours will be more telling for Leah and the condition she is facing. As a praise, Leah’s PDA has CLOSED! She had an echo-cardiogram performed this past Monday, and the cardiologist report showed that her PDA has closed on its own. So, we will not be facing surgery with our other little one! This is a HUGE answered prayer!
Amelia is continuing to grow, thrive, and get stronger. She had her stitches removed from her surgery this past week. Our precious angel has a little scar of courage, but we are thankful because now we have a distinct feature for our identical twins! Andrew and I have been so humbled by the numerous amount of family, friends, and prayer warriors that have been praying for our family and girls. We are asking tonight that you pray for our sweet Leah and that her little body will overcome what it is battling. We ask that you pray for her nurses and doctors, for the guidance and wisdom as they continue to treat her in a proactive manner. Also, please pray for Andrew and I that we continue to rely on the One who will give us the strength to overcome these days. As we see our sweet girl in these conditions, it is not easy to practice patience. As her mother, I want to scoop her in my arms and comfort her until I know she is well and healed. As my patience is being tried in these days, I am comforted by the fact that God is always patient. We are the impatient ones, demanding to be convinced and heard. Through His patience, God is waiting for us to believe. Amongst our busy schedules and crazy lifestyles, if we would just take the time to listen and see, we would walk toward God and believe.
So, as I am waiting the next 48 hours for the results for my sweet girl– I am choosing to believe in hope and keep the faith. Faith is the belief in the things unseen. I am choosing to believe and have faith that my God has His angels over our Leah tonight when we are not with her physically. The greatest Christmas present I could receive is not for my girls to be home, but for them to be healthy. Andrew and I are anxiously awaiting the day we are able to bring them home, but for now we will: keep the faith, hold our breaths, pray, wait, and live and celebrate each day.
Thank you for joining our family in praying fervently for our two Christmas blessings. We can not wait for you all to meet the two miracles you have been praying for, and to allow you to witness the blessings that we get to see every day. The song below is one of my favorites and has been a source of comfort for me as I travel to and from Chapel Hill (along with Bon Jovi of course!)